The Feeling that no one cares | Day 1

Today, I started my day by making my pet dog's food. The loving name of my pet dog that I have given him is "elephant's child" and this is my elder child. The elephant's child ate food and then I took him to pee and poop. After that I changed the food and water of some birds in the house. And now I fell asleep again.

After completing two hours of sleep, my sister woke me up for breakfast. I had breakfast and completed some of my cleaning tasks in the house.

After that, me and my sister start watching few vlogs on YouTube, then suddenly my younger sister comes in our room where me and my other sister present and asks my other sister about some pictures in her mobile.

After helping her, my other sister starts explaining more security measures of the younger one's mobile (which she got a few days ago. And it's her first mobile). And in a funny sense, I mistakenly asking for showing the Google account of younger's sister mobile which my other sister has already opened.

When my other sister shows me a Google account, my younger sister covers her mobile with her hand and not showing her account to me. And tells my other sister that they never checked my accounts. So, she can't check my account.

I have been tormented by many similar indiscretions of my own which cause me to lose control of my anger.

The feeling that no one cares

I felt very bad about this act of hers, but still I forgot everything and started explaining to my two younger sisters about the setting and security of google account on the request of my other sister.

Again and again his bitter words hurt me like shards of glass and I start telling my both younger sisters in a little louder voice that I don't wish them harm.

But the thinking of my both younger sisters is probably too small. She doesn't accept her mistake as a mistake and starts accusing me of being wrong. After which I refuse to teach them anything. And went to my room where my other sister was also present.

Even while sitting in this room, I cannot control on my anger and predict that she will not achieve anything in the coming times because of her cheap thinking.

As soon as I made this prediction, my younger sister started making cheapest act and my anger began to increase more. In that anger, I made a mistake by my tongue (which I didn't mean at all) in which I used the word "all of you".

By "all of you" I meant only my two younger sisters and no one else, but my other sister asks me "what do you mean that word?"

I asked her to keep quiet at that time because I was also angry and I didn't mean to say wrong to her but she didn't keep quiet and kept asking me her question again and again in a strange and irritating tone.

Fed up with her taunting tone, I angrily told her to leave the room and not come in front of me if she thought that I was teasing her. After that she starts crying and says that's what you want. I should stop my work, I stopped. I don't understand when I said this to her.

I'm the one who bought her a laptop, I'm the one who put her to work, I'm the one who wants to see my sisters stand on their own feet. But what to do We all have a flaw in our upbringing. That's why we didn't learn to believe in unity and never show trust on our relations.

After that, things escalated and my sister who always pretended to be with me, shows her real face again today. And like every time, she began to tell false accusations against me. And what she herself does to me began to tell that my attitude.

Things were getting worse, I begged my mother and all my siblings to leave me alone but my second sister kept sitting there and started disturbing me mentally, now I left the room and after some times my second sister also left my room and sat with everyone else in another room.

At night, my second child "a pet parrot" and I ate food and fell asleep.

Here are a few things I realized today.

1. I have no right to interfere in the affairs of my socalled sisters ever.

2. Nor should I think about their good and bad.

3. And I should stay separate and alone from all of them.