Today, I came across something that made me pause. Which is, "Know yourself, who are you? What is your self-story? What makes you, you? What do you believe even if it's not popular?" And after reading it, I didn't want to do anything. I kept reading it, but it seemed impossible to understand. After reading it again and again, I came to the conclusion that it is not enough for me to understand it. Because it is easy to talk about others, to make comments about it, but when it comes to oneself, one becomes ignorant and forgetful. The same thing happened to me. I don't want to know who I am. Not because I don't want to know, but because I don't have any identity of myself. The pain is just that I would have an identity of myself if...? Know yourself, who are you? The answer breaks me, so I have to lie to myself about being ignorant. But actually I have the answer. And that is "a loser". It is not that I did not make any effort to win, but when I sto...